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I caught up with author of gay erotica Dixon Penn and asked him a few personal questions.

Can you remember the first time you jacked- off?

I was thirteen, in my bedroom, getting hard looking at pictures of footballers — I’d carefully snipped them from newspapers.

Usually it was just their legs that I cut out and kept hidden in a drawer. Thighs were my thing, and football socks. I once ‘borrowed’ a worn pair from a fellow pupil at secondary school. They took my jacking off to new heights.

The only footballer I remember swooning over was Steve Coppell, who was playing for Manchester United when I was a lad. There was something about his nose. I kept pictures of his whole body, not just his thighs.

How did you feel when you first jacked off?

Stunned. Shocked. Bemused. Guilty — I came in my undies and jeans. That may be why lads filling their undies soaks through into my erotic fiction. I was mighty keen to try it again.

Did you talk about it with anyone?

Not a soul. I was a loner growing up. I never discussed it with anyone.

Did you try any different techniques in those early years?

My technique was gradually refined as my teen years faded. In tandem, I discovered that some anal play heightened the delight of shooting a load.

How has your jack- off style evolved over the years?

I cringe when I see younger lads in porn yanking it about all over the shop — like it’s a jumbo sausage or something.

My style requires all five digits working in harmony. I like my fingers curved around my shaft, the forefinger and thumb nestled beneath my helmet as the magic circle.

Then, a nice, steady up-down motion — as if I were masturbating a rolling pin. I’m not bragging, honest.

I love to cum inside my foreskin, so when I edge toward bliss, I nip the foreskin tight between my forefinger and thumb. Hot jizz filling up inside that skin — heaven. When I’m feeling lazy, I’ll wear a condom and cum into that. It’s sweet watching that rubber teat inflate.

What’s your preferred way to jack- off currently?

If I’m in the back of my transit van on a street, or in a car park, or parked deep in the woods, I’ll whip the foreskin back and just let rip — firing hot globs all over the shop. Technology is wonderful — when I’m out working all day, I can pick up porn sites on my phone if I’m in need of some relief. If the connection’s dodgy, I can connect to a customer’s Wi-Fi.

What jack- off hints or tips would you give a young guy just starting to explore his sexuality?

Touch yourself in whatever way feels right for you. Don’t think you’ve got to master the techniques of porn stars — just pick up some hints and tips and ideas from them. Take it slow, learn to get close to the precipice.


Let your imagination run wild and free — it’s more powerful than anything you’ll watch on a screen.

Remember that at the start of your jacking journey, you’ll not have much control — especially if you rub it too much. It can get messy and embarrassing on buses, trains — other venues are possible.

Enjoy it, and never ever feel bad, dirty, or guilty about it.

If you think jacking yourself off is divine, just wait until someone else does it for you.

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Meet the vegan body-builder

Alexander Kosztowny is building mass without harm.



Alexander Kosztowny (image supplied)
Alexander Kosztowny (image supplied)

I caught up with aspiring bodybuilder Alexander Kosztowny to talk fitness, food, and life as a vegan body-builder.

Were you into sports at school?

No. Growing up, I was a heavy-set kid, and not very active at all. In school, I was very academic, and focused mainly on my studies rather than athletics. I didn’t dread gym class, and always worked hard and enjoyed certain sports like tennis and volleyball, but the lack of variety of activities in gym class limited my view on the variety of types of activities out there. If I’d tried a weight lifting class, or yoga, or karate, my attitude may have changed earlier in life. My sister was always active, but I come from a family who are not very big on physical activity or sports. Of course, like most, I wish I’d started earlier, but better late than never.

Can you remember what your first experience of a gym was?

I lost a lot of weight in high school with the onset of puberty, and with the gaining knowledge of nutrition, portion control, and cardiovascular activity. When I went to college, I found myself putting a lot of the weight back on, and knew I had to prevent that. I joined a gym, and hired a personal trainer for the first time to help me get back on track.

I absolutely fell in love with pumping iron. I was able to coordinate working out into being a part of my schedule, as opposed to limiting it only to ‘when I have time’ and having a trainer not only motivated me and taught me technique, but also kept me accountable for my actions. He helped me with adding strength while paying attention to form, and meal planning, The excess weight fell off, and I became addicted.

Now I’m in the gym every day, pushing my body and transforming both my health, my appearance, and my outlook.

When did you decide to get serious about your fitness and bodybuilding?

About four years ago. But I’ve only been super-serious for about a year, and I’ve only been extremely strict in terms of diet for about six months. I’m still a beginner.

What’s your aspiration as a bodybuilder?

To get huge. That’s it.

As someone who’s plant-based, I’d also like to show others what’s possible on a non-traditional diet. That there are other forms of nutrition and protein, and you can build muscle, look great, and have tons of energy without harm.

What’s the difference between your body as it is now and the way that you want your body to look?

I’d still call my self thick or chubby-muscular. The interesting thing about bodybuilding is that there never really is an end goal. You just lift and grow bigger and you’re never quite big or strong enough. I’m just trying to push myself as far as I possibly can. It’s exciting to see the changes you can make that way.

What’s your work-out regime like?

I’m in the gym six or seven times a week. This seems excessive to some people, and I know others who only go three or four times a week, and that works for them. For me, the gym is therapeutic and a stress reliever, as well as a hobby.

I usually spend about one hour doing weight lifting — machines and free weights — and then I wrap up with about 35 minutes of cardio. I focus on one body part per day. It’s a traditional bodybuilding split, so muscles have a chance to rest. This routine works for me — I know some people have luck doing high-intensity, full body workouts, but I like the focus of working each muscle group in isolation.

Do you have a work-out buddy?

Not currently, but I’ve always enjoyed it when I do. It really is vital for really heavy spotting, and the dependability is nice if they’re as motivated as you. If anyone is in Los Angeles and wants to train with me, hit me up!

How important is controlling your diet?


Controlling diet is extremely important. It makes or breaks your progress in the gym. if you lift but don’t eat right, you won’t get anywhere. I’ve seen this happen both for myself and others. When I finally got on the right meal plan, the results happened in no time at all — abs are made in the kitchen, not the gym.

I eat about five times a day, and I’m plant-based, just like Tom Brady. My diet consists of lots of legumes, lentils, tofu, peas, broccoli, peanut butter, protein shakes, and other natural, nutrient-rich foods that contain protein without resorting to animal products.

Besides the ethical and environmental sides of going vegan, I find I have more energy, need less time to recover, and am less sore, as well as having clearer skin. I count my macros — calories, carbs, proteins, and fats — and eat the same foods every day to stay on track. I’ve pretty much eliminated bread, gluten, alcohol, refined sugars, and beverages besides water from my diet, except for special occasions. I’m super-strict, but do let myself enjoy food.

Are your friends and family supportive of your bodybuilding aspirations?

For the most part. They’re always impressed at my progress and dedication, but I need a lot of willpower when I have a family who loves to cook, bake, and tempt me with treats. That’s why having a partner or workout buddy who is on a similar plan is helpful, if you’re lucky enough to find one. It keeps you on track.

Are you competing?

Nope, and no plans to either. But that may change as I grow bigger.

What are some of your priorities for the months ahead?

I’m currently in the best shape I’ve ever been in, so I want to just keep on progressing. It’s a slow process, and takes a lot of time, so you have to be patient.

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